I've always been a rational person. Almost oppresively rational. I take pride in ignoring my base emotions, killing my ego, and dealing in "the real". I believed the human spirit was nonsense and it was all just neural pathways and past experiences. Im a real fun guy. An outlook like that, however, does not breed … Continue reading Lack of Lack of Faith
I hear shitty ideas excused away by "Its just how I was raised". Maybe it's a southern thing. Maybe it's the religious influence of "honor thy mother and father". To think that someone would concede their own autonomy and blame it on their parents is beyond me. I think part of growing up is truly … Continue reading What Mama Said
I did a blog about video games and what they mean to me. I was inspired by a very specific game. At the risk of beating a dead horse I'm going to talk about this game ad nauseam because I love it and this is my outlet. You've been warned. I'll preface this by admitting … Continue reading Subaqueous Obsession
One of my earliest, relatively vivid memories was from 1990. I was 5 years old. I was scrawny. I loved the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and I had just seen their first live action movie with my dad. Some of my dad's new wife's family had come over and they had brought a "Nintendo" and … Continue reading Better than Drugs
Ever since Gavyn was a baby, he's looked just like me, which is weird because his mom is just a half sister technically speaking. I'm not a very present uncle. It's something I really am trying to change that. He's 10 now and he has a personality that's also very much like mine. We share … Continue reading A quiet, attentive 23 Years.
Hypnogagia. It's 5 dollar word to be sure. It sounds like an ancient land is some cheesy fantasy world. "I will be the most powerful sorcerer in all of Hypnogagia!" It's not. But close enough. It's that twilight state of mind between wakefulness and sleep. Those mid afternoon naps where you didn't know you were … Continue reading Hypnogagic Dismal Details
I love music. I know that's not an insightful or unique thing to say but it's true. I have only 2 tattoos. One is a matching tattoo with my wife, and the other is a tribal sun with the Chinese symbol for music in it. Don't judge me. It was 2004. It was what I … Continue reading Cadenza