Better than Drugs

One of my earliest, relatively vivid memories was from 1990. I was 5 years old. I was scrawny. I loved the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and I had just seen their first live action movie with my dad. Some of my dad's new wife's family had come over and they had brought a "Nintendo" and …

Hypnogagic Dismal Details

Hypnogagia. It's 5 dollar word to be sure. It sounds like an ancient land is some cheesy fantasy world. "I will be the most powerful sorcerer in all of Hypnogagia!" It's not. But close enough. It's that twilight state of mind between wakefulness and sleep. Those mid afternoon naps where you didn't know you were …

Cadenza

I love music. I know that's not an insightful or unique thing to say but it's true. I have only 2 tattoos. One is a matching tattoo with my wife, and the other is a tribal sun with the Chinese symbol for music in it. Don't judge me. It was 2004. It was what I …

The Tragedy and Beauty of Fireworks

Father time is a cruel bastard. I'm 33 years old and I know some people would scoff. "Boy you don't know nothing bout getting old." Those people are REALLY old though. This is the oldest I've ever been. If I die at 66 (which some would consider a ripe old age) I'm halfway done. I …

Two and a Half Stone of Bullshit.

I'm seven days into calorie counting again after a 3 to 4 month break. I lost a lot of weight doing it and I could still lose more. I want to be down to 200 pounds by the end of the year. I'm 221 now (if my sketchy scale is to be trusted) and I …

The Only Difference is Vanity.

I've been keeping a journal for a while and had the urge to share some of it. I think the blog formula is journal+vanity+internet=blog. I have thoughts that seem weird to me. Maybe not necessarily weird but not openly discussed by most. I figure if I can post them here maybe I can give and …